full of emotion

Many changes have come my way in the past month. I know that I have written about some of them, but what I want to be aware of as I go through these changes is my emotions and my thoughts. I want to be fully open to new ideas and new experiences.

In the past I have kept myself from new experiences b/c of my own prejudgement of the experience. I don't want to prejudge anything. I want to jump in, knowing that no matter what happens there are constants in my life that will never change. The only true constant for me.....is God. He will love tomorrow and the next day and the millionth day after that....and He loves me now. I can't change this and nothing that happens to me will change this. When I go through changes in life I am always looking for a constant in the midst of the changes. I found it and to make it through the changes I have to anchor myself to God.

I also have to be aware of my mental and emotional being. I have to make sure that I am not shutting down and building walls to keep people and God out of my life. This is going to take effort and awareness. I know that I am already in the prejudgement mode. I'm in a new place and I'm at a new school. I need to place myself in this moment and enjoy this moment.

I'm going to push myself to go beyond my comfort level. I am glad to say that I have been communicating with new people and I have been making decisions that are the exact opposite of ones I have made in my past. I want these changes and I want to be transformed by God in these new experiences....so now I will open my mind to new possibilities.

that's all for now...here's to awareness,

Laina